In October We Remember Those Gone Too Soon

Today I read a status of a friend of mine that stated that "In October we remember all babies born sleeping or whom we have carried, but never met or those we have held, but could not take home or the ones that came home, but didn't stay."= I quickly posted it to my facebook and sat at my computer chair and just sat in tears as I prayed to my Heavenly Father to let my baby girl know that I miss her so much. Having her be a part of my husband and I's lives has changed us so drastically. We appreciate the littlest of things now, and we cling to each other more than ever because of her influence. Its been two months since our little girl returned back to heaven. Our lives are so different. Now I think twice when people ask, "Do you have any kids?" or "When are you guys going to start a family?" We have started our eternal family that will be together forever because of the plan of salvation. I am a mother even though I cannot hold and take care of my little one right now. The Savior is doing that for me until I can do it for the first time when we meet.

When I was pregnant back in July, my doctor said we would find out the sex of the baby near the first of October. Jon said we had to wait till his birthday on October 12th (which is today) because that would be the best present he could ask for. WEll things changed but he still has te best present he could ask for even though she isn't here to wish him happy birthday herself. I love you sweet baby girl! And for those of you reading this post please remember those friends or family members or even yourself who had a baby who was gone too soon!