Friday, December 30, 2011

A New Year....A New Blog Post

So I was in Arizona and I had 3 people ask me why I haven't updated my BLOG in SOOOOOOO long. Since March my life has been so busy. With a new church calling as Young Women president, added responsibilities at school, and trying to find time to be with Jon... my life has flown by and there are many things that I have neglected. One being my blog. So now with the New Year happing in one day, I have made a goal to get back to blogging. So hope you are all ready to hear more from the Ellsworth's, because the Ellsworth's are back!!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

You're A Special Little Spirit

A young lady who ended losing one of her precious babies to anencephaly like Jon and I's baby had, sent me this beautiful poem and I needed to share this with you all. It touched my heart and I know even if you haven't lost a child you will still find meaning in this.

You're A Special Little Spirit

"You're a Special Little Spirit" the all great Master said,
As he gently caressed the curly blond hair of the Little Spirit's head.
"You need to go to Earth to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits to be tested, to learn, to grow."
The Little Spirit, in sadness, slowly bowed her head,
And from her eye a tear did steal and down her cheek it shed.
"Don't you fret now little one, I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here,
You'll hardly know you've been gone.
You're my choicest Little Spirit, you're the apple of my eye."
And he wiped the tear and gently kissed
His Little Spirit goodbye.

"I'm back," the Little Spirit whispered
as she climbed onto her Master's knee,
And the Master said,
"I told you, you would not be long away from me."
And then, the Lord, He noticed still
another tear welled in her eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit,
Whatever should make you cry?"
"I'm glad I'm back," the Spirit said,
"but Master you must surely know,
When your angel came to get me, I didn't want to go.
I know you said you needed me
and that I'd be gone the shortest while,
But Lord, couldn't I have had a little loner earthly trial?"

The Master let the Little Spirit slip down from His knee,
He firmly took the little hand and said, "Come walk with me."
The Little Spirit and her Lord walked slowly hand in hand,
As the Master explained Her special part
in the great and marvelous plan.
"Now Lord, I don't mean to argue,
I understand you need me home.
But I left in such a hurry,
I left everyone hurting and so alone.
I didn't let my earthly parents know
how much I loved them so
I was much too small to tell them,
Lord, how will they ever know?
They feel they've been cheated, and in a way so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did,
how can I ever tell them why?"

"Little Spirit, I know your heart is heavy
with the message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore,
I'll watch over your loved ones there.
I'll send them loving comfort as a strong and helping hand.
I'll content and give peace to their aching hearts,
so they will understand.
The Little Spirit looked up at her Master and said
"Thank you for explaining it to me,
And could you please tell them I'm safe and happy
and that someday they'll be here with me."
"Yes." said the Lord with a smile and a nod,
"I'll tell them all that I can."

Then the others came to see the Little Spirit,
as the Lord let go of her hand.
He said, "I'll tell them you're pure, as pure as Heaven's Gold,
that I needed the warmth of your perfect soul
to keep Heaven from getting cold."

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Cheers for 2011

2010 was a crazy year for Jon and I. As we celebrated New Years Eve last night and brought in the new year we remembered all the heartache, loneliness, and sadness we experienced. Without a doubt 2010 was our hardest year yet. We started out 2010 being seperated by 600 miles while Jon started our Denver adventure. I had to stay in Arizona to finish out my teaching contract. It was so hard being away from Jon for 5 months. I will NEVER do that again! We then got together in the summer and found out that we were expecting our first baby. We were delighted by the surprising news and couldn't wait for February 18th, 2011 to come because thats when we were going to meet our little girl! Things took a turn for the worst in August and after being 13 weeks pregnant I had to end the short journey I had with our little girl. That was the hardest thing we have done. But it has made us grow so close and realize the wonderful things we have. We are grateful to have a little girl waiting for us in heaven and know she has touched our hearts in ways that we can't even explain.

2010 wasn't a complete downer. We had highlights as well. Jon started graduate school at University of Colorado Denver studying healthcare administration and accounting. We moved to a great place and have made wonderful friends in Denver. I found a teaching job and count my many blessings for that because as many of you know teaching jobs are not being found in this economy. So we can't say nothing great happened this past year. But we do know that 2011 will bring us joy and we both have a good feeling about this great new year that is upon us. We look forward to hopefully getting another opportunity to have another baby and for the chance to love that boy or girl with all that we have. We will find out where Jon will do his residency in 2012 so we can plan our future. We also plan on travelling a bit to see family and friends. We also know that 2011 will bring surprises and we can't wait to see what it has in store for us. So here is to 2011and the wonderful year it will be for us and for all of you! Cheers!!